27 August 2008
Reflection: Once Again
Posted by
Esha
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Misc. .
When a few of my friends learned that he was back in my life a lot of them shook their heads. What people fail to realize is that there will always be a connection between this person and myself. The same ones that shake their heads at the notion, are the ones who after all these years, dont’ know me as well as he does.
Yes, there are other fish in the sea, but right now I’d rather swim on the safe shallow end. As with all relationships/friendships that cross ‘that’ line, we have always had our share of ups and downs. We’re both two prideful people and I think that gets in the way of our communication. Also, I tend to be very passive/aggressive when it comes to communicating with him. Sometimes I wish he could actually read my mind, it would save me a lot of sleepless nights.
One of these days, I’ll be able to open up to him and express to him exactly how I feel, without feeling so intimidated and fearful of the rejection that could come from it. Last night, Yashieka and I spoke about emotional intelligence and how it enables effective communication. I think occasionally, my hot-headedness gets the best of me when it comes to him, for some reason he’s been the only person who knows what buttons to push.
In any event, who knows if this is the last “again” or the end to another “again” to only begin “again”?
I definitely know, if we ever completely grow apart, for better or for worst, a piece will definitely be missing from my life.
